#IWishICould

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So I have to say I wish I could wear shorts, Skirts, dress haha  im being ridiculous again. but it's real, i Have a lot of scars so im stuck with jeans (but i love wearing jeans and im comfortable with it) but sometimes i wish i could wear those kind of clothes, i envy those other girls, coz' they could wear everything and anything they want because they have a lovely legs but me?! I have to wear stockings whenever i go to school i never go to school without stockings, my classmates always teased me because i always wear it, and im like its okay, and i have to pretend that its okay, but inside it tears my heart while they are happy teasing me im dying inside. but i have to be strong and i just give them i smilling face. when i get invited from a debut which we have to wear a dress i have to put a lot of foundation on my legs ( well it work a bit). (hiyang hiya ako sa mga ganong okasyon napaka rami na)

maybe.. i mean i know thats the reason why im like this. my scars are the reasons why im a boyish. 

i need to be strong so no one can just step on me, being like a boy is like being strong. me like this is a good thing, whenever i got insulted by my classmates,for boys  i punch them in "their" arms its not just one but they are i think three of them, and the others are gay, there are some girls. but they just do it for fun, i dont take it seriously, but sometimes it hurts me :(

can someone  love a girl with  lots of scars? i think NO ONE, this is just one of the MANY REASON why theres no one likes me, well it's okay im not really expecting someone will like me (im used to it) in my whole life no one tells me or confess to me that they like me. NO ONE . you know boys wants sexy girls, beautiful legs, beautiful girls. and thats not me!!! and its okay. right, i really dont care though sometimes i ask, but i swear right now i dont need it, to be loved by GOD is very much comforting, and thats what everybody needs.

 . i think im going to be an OLD MAID, i just dont see myself having a boyfriend or being in a relationship, yes I do daydream every body do it, but whenever i do it, i dont use my face instead im using beautiful persons like celebrities like that (and ofcourse I have beautiful skin), but me imagining with someone is like ehh, im like childish, boyish im really makulit, erhhh imagine me having a "love quarrel  with a guy, or cuddle with,i really can't  so I can't Picture out myself doing what a lady do and what is like to be in a relationship.

but of course if i would have a chance i would do it, i will dress up like a girl confidently, i would wear shorts and skirts outside if i would have a chance.

i dont want to get my hopes up regarding this situation, because i might get hurt in the end if this will not going to happen, but i think i have to,not to hurt my feelings  but to build up my confidence.

and

i wish i could, i wish i could wear that 

someday :)

Adventure Kit's!

since I always feel so Alone, and i have to be happy even when Im alone i have to be prepare for it.




here are the list of things that i have to bring whenever im on an adventure haha..

I love black chucks and im comfortable wearing it so ....

I Wear everything im comfortable with.
i just like to pair my white shirt and black pants haha

I always need this everywhere i love listening to music esp. when im alone :)

powder to stay fresh haha

My fave. back pack ever haha

I must have money everywhere i go.

Since water is my favorite beverage in all time i Always have my Tumbler on my Bagpack, i always get turst haha

so those are the list of my adventure kit. that i must and have to bring. but i dont have a camera on my own ( i have to save money, so i can buy my camera!), and a cup (for invisible me) so no one will notice me. haha

10 days to go :(

10 days to go before my birthday :(

can i be 18 forever?


i have this weird imagination of being a vampire, you know road trip, travel anywhere, long road, beach, night drive, even without someone, you can do that all by yourself without getting in danger, or kill by bad humans out there, kidnappers, holdapers you know those things, i mean you know this generation many people get killed by those people, but if your a vampire you can defend yourself, THE MOVES!!! cool fighting scenes, special powers, and in the end your the one who's going to win haha (and take note you will never get old haha)

well that was just my imagination.
i think i envy bella, edward, rosalie, alice, jasper, emmett, charlisle, esme, jane and all the vampires in twilight because of their powers, skills, and ofcourse their age haha.


i really don't want to grow up, i don't want to grow old, I  fear of getting old, but yes all of us will get old sooner. we can't stay and stick with this, we have to grow up and learn from it...


"age is just a number and young is in attitude"


everybody will die, and i know i have a place on heaven :)

GIRL mode

and....

we have our project in front office management, a video which we have to reserve a room for a guest (BTW im now in third year college Hospitality management student at Palawan State University)

so, i have to put a little make up, dress like a girl, a real girl (i mean i'm a girl but, i'm not really like that) so moving on.... and act like a girl :)

my video its kinda mess haha 

Be confident REMEMBER?

bathroom picture

sorry for my face :D

BTW the blouse i'm wearing is not mine, its my mother's, i dont have that kind of blouse, just tshirt, simple blouse, my other clothes is from my brother's (kuya's) closet i just ask them to give to me, and they agree sometimes i give them money to pay for their clothes haha i dont know i just envy their clothes .

2013 - 1/365

New YEAR!
New Day!
New Beggining
Expecting new friends

so yeah, im starting my new year with GOOD VIBES. smile all the way :)


ehem. Remember when i told you i will  be or i have to be confident in taking picture of myself so, this! i really need to be confident, i need MEMORIES :)

me and inang  (smile) :)

nakasimangot hehe

i really dont know?

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Edited!!!

BLUR!  haha i lurv it (tumblr DP)

if there's no one to count on (except GOD, he's always there) i have myself always :)