I wish I wasn't the kind of person who fears many things.
I mean, I wanted to be productive, Adventurous, and do the YOLO's thingy but how can do those things when I fear of going Home late. I hate fears,and I fvcking hate those stupid people doing crimes like stealing, Murdering. why do those things exist?
I always ask my friends, to do this, go here, go there but they Always reject me. like always. but whenever they were the ones who ask me if i like to do this or go there, go here i always says yes. and I was kind of, get hurt every time those things happens. sometimes I wish i could just duplicate myself every time i feel lonely or needing someone to be with, because i need someone like me, someone who can understand me, and thats me. I mean, need the presence of me being with me. but I can't, and it's not possible.
right now, I just wish to bring out my fearless side, fearless in a good way, and do things by myself, because I can't count on my friends anymore, though I love them, I really love them, so much. it's just that maybe they don't want the things I wanna do. or maybe they don't like me at all, because they keep on rejecting me and never agree on my suggestions. I m so Lonely Right now. Gosh this hurts, truth hurts, I guess.
And i guess i should start doing things alone, or by myself. I have to start being happy by myself besides "you create you own happiness''/'' Happiness is a choice''/'' you can't depend your happiness in someone else's hand'' right? I just hope for the best and wish I was brave enough.
And i guess i should start doing things alone, or by myself. I have to start being happy by myself besides "you create you own happiness''/'' Happiness is a choice''/'' you can't depend your happiness in someone else's hand'' right? I just hope for the best and wish I was brave enough.
