Merry Christmas

yes! its Christmas, the best day in a year. Gifts,loves,foods,lights,Christmas tree's. and papa God's born day.

i should not be sad... but I am.

at 3:00am while im lying in my Bed, thingking of many things, I feel rejected, I feel alone, I feel like I don't have friends. (well apparently "friends leave") i really don't know why do i have to feel this thing, I don't know why I entertain this feeling.

at 3:00 in the afternoon 25th of December
i decided to go to my grandfathers grave to visit him,to greet him a merry Christmas, to relax, to think. I was there for about 2 hours and half.

 this are just the picture that i have from my "adventure" i like/love taking pictures,  but im not really comfortable taking pictures of myself,because i dont really look good in pictures (even in personal haha)

next time i will force my self to take pictures more often and with confidence. and I'm planning to have my own "Adventure Book" just like from the movie "UP"

it's Christmas i should be happy, i MUST be happy  even if its not Christmas i MUST BE HAPPY!
 I'm not perfect, everybody is not, and Im not a bad person I think i deserve to be happy.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY :)