Getting my Hopes up.

April 9,2014

It's 2:51AM  and still... Gosh! I can't sleep, though I am sleepy and tired already.

well, maybe its because of what happen earlier and yesterday. 

That feeling when you get your hopes up... When you are already imagining things before it happen? The moment you feel someone likes you... and then in just a second, it was gone...

When you feel someone likes you and you feel it glance at you, looking at you from far. and you can't help but HOPE that he really likes you, and then the "IMAGINE" thing begins...
 you Imagine scenery's  of you and him making cute things together, like what lover do. YES! because you think he likes you... and then right after you Imagine it, when you saw him.. it's like nothing, It feels like he don't know you at all. that glances and looking things just gone.

And this is proven.
Urrrgggg AND I HATE MYSELF FOR FEELING THOSE THINGS...
Why on earth do I feel those things?!..


sorry, I'm just really pissed off, to think  that nobody really cares and nobody likes ( urrrggg.. why do I have to say those things)

I'm just really depress right now regarding those things, and my self esteem is getting lower.

and TO MYSELF:
Just please! don't get your hopes up. NEVER!
pleased SELF, be patient and try not to care. if that happens again, please stop hoping...
it's so sad, to see you (myself)  sad.
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urrggg.. I don't care what are the reasons for that.
just... FVCK those guys who get my hopes up! and I hope to NEVER SEE YOU ALL AGAIN!
(sorry i'm just bitter)

and sometimes I feel like.. maybe that people doesn't like me at all., maybe I'm just a "feeler", and nothing really happens naman talaga, and those glances and looking things is just in my mind.

Maybe I'm the only one who GET MY HOPES UP. not them, not everyone But me.