Summertime Sadness

yeah, I know it's a Lana Del Rey song and its a beautiful song.
well, her songs are so cool! and she's really beautiful.

 I really felt sad and bad this summer and it is indeed 

a "SUMMERTIME SADNESS"

it's Summer and everybody's waiting for summer, longing for summer.

And everybody LOVES summer.

Damn. I feel worst! one of my most worst summer ever!

at first I thought my summer will be a blast because I started a road trip in march palang and blah blah blah. but I'm wrong I got stuck in our House with non adventure thing happens waiting for the day goes by, sleep, babysitting, TV and repeat, Gosh it SICK! I hadn't even finish my list of books to read

I envy my friends who got to spend their summer in the most adventurous way, they got to spend their summer in other places, in other country, accommodate in a hotel, hike, Island Hopping, Beach, Swim, watch concerts, get drunk! I also envy those artists who got a chance to travel the whole earth and make people smile and happy. I want to cry tons for this.

I CAN"T because I don't have Adventurous Friends, I don't Have Adventurous family, I don't have money, I don't have flawless Skin, gosh It's summer and I can't even wear shorts.

T^T

I really need someone...someone who I can share an Adventure with.

Someone I can trust.

Someone That I can called "My Adventure Buddy/Buddies"