Well 21

We'll as you know, I never blog about my birthday, just the day before, wishing I was younger. 

I never blog about it because it's always ... nothing happens. 

just another day. and every year on my birthday, I don't know I just feel sad and un-contended, though I don't have to feel that way, right? I mean I'm thankful. very much thankful for everything. but I always feel this "not contended" thingy and I feel really BAD about it. about how I acted and how I'm feeling. it's really unfair for God because he did and give everything for me, yet I was not contended and unhappy. and I'm sorry papa God.

it's 10:37 pm. 1 hour and 23 minutes before my birthday and I'm 21. 

At 21 I already have so many regrets. wishing that i have done this, that,  went here, there. and everything I wish I did but I didn't do. I know 21 is still young but I wish I did so many things on my younger age. 

well "sabi nga nila: Nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Hindi ka pwedeng mag sisi sa simula"

I wish 2015 and the next years will be my year. I don't want to grow old with so many regrets. 

One of the things I don't want to happen when I get old is sitting in my chair thingking about things I wish I did but I did not do. 

I want to travel the world, write poems, eat. make music, spent precious moments with my family and friends. watch concerts. had a beautiful Job, to be successful, contented and many things!

 and maybe fall inlove. 

Happy Birthday to me!

PS. dear self, please be Happy, Try not to cry this year and be contended.