tired and a little Distress

I feel so tired and a little distress this past few weeks. 

I cry for non sense things. I think too much. 

I just wish that things will fall together in time.

I just started my internship last Tuesday December 3. (kinda)

its not what we've expected. really. it's hard to explain right now.  but it's our schedule. (the schedule is really sucks) well back on the training, we still do our duty. were like, "on calls" but still trainee .

it's kinda hard dealing with staffs on that establishment. i know some of them, but were not really close. some are higher year, ex students from my college. I don't judge them or something, maybe i'll get used to them in time. but right now, I just don't. i always remember my friends and get sad. I rarely laugh, even smile. I just don't "pansin" nalang the staffs. I want to cry But I can't. missing my friends is always part of me.

what distress's me?

+ some of my friends left already.  for their internship abroad.

+ knowing my other friends will leave soon

+ the fact that I haven't finish reading "The time travelers wife"

+ I can't read right now because of Ojt :(

+ knowing our schedule distress me so much.

+ those non sense things that i cried for (millions of time)

+ </3

+ adventure time shirt

Things happen for a reason.

Everything that happens will always have a reason.

maybe you don't know why things happens right now, but in time you will figure out why.

God always want's the best for us, and those things that don't happened in your life always have reason. and  much better things are coming than what you expected.

Our school/course has this program where us (the HM and TOURISM students)  take our OJT (on the job training) outside the country. in Malaysia. and it's an opportunity and ofcourse learning the culture of other country, their living will always be a great experience. If you were to ask me, I would love to take my ojt there, but I can't. 

my mother always tell's me that it's God's will, that God wants me here at Palawan with my family, that there will be great things that will come for me here. and I believe in it. I believe in God's will. 

as I say "maybe you don't know why things happens right now, but in time you will figure out why."

My friends from college (College Barkada's) will soon be leaving without the five of us. and it's just kinda sad Ojt in Malaysia will took 6 months to fulfill and Ojt here is olny 450 hours.

Imagine 6 months apart. 6 months without seeing them. 6 months without hanging out with them. it's really kinda sad. I'm not used to it, even though we've only been all together less than a year. but the friendship is "SOLID". I know in time I'll get used to it.

But, I'm happy for them, and I'll pray for the best. for them. 

I will surely miss them when they leave :)

Frustrated Writer

I wish I was genius at writing as the others TT (crying)

I love to write anything but as I say im not genius as the others. I'm trying to write a story at wattpad, about a teacher and a Student (HAHAHA evil laugh).

but its not the story about me and sir and I don't even wan't this to be my story and sir's. It's just nakakakilig lang haha. it's not yet finish, and I don't think I can finish it. because of personal things, Laziness, and lock of focus.

other than writing a story I like writing poetry's I actually post my works here.
But it's not that really good. I think it's not catchy and some are out of rhyme.

but despite those hindrances, I will continue to write, I'm trying hehe
I believe in myself.
I believe in the talent that God has given me.
I will never stop.

Happy 1st year Harry!

haha I feel so pathetic about this post but here it goes…

Happy 1^st year anniversary Harry Styles!!!

I had a crush on Harry Styles For a year!! wow

It’s been a year now, I remember it was November 2, 2012 when the Music video of “Little things” released and I did not watch it because our internet connection was slow and I wait for a good connection and that was past 12 midnight so it’s already November 3, 2012 .

Before the release of  ”little things” My favorite member of the group is Niall and I had a crush on Louis (is it possible?). But I like them all, though. When I watch the video and heard the song especially Harry’s Part I was like "rrskjndjdsfsns". I mean. his voice. The husky thing, I love it. it’s MAN-ish I mean in tagalog it’s “lalaking – lalaki” and that was nakaka kilig and nakaka inlove. I keep on repeating the song because of the lyrics and their voices.

uuuhhhh... Isn't he the cutest?? hihihi

A letter to Harry Styles :

Dear Harry,

 I know you don’t know me, I know you don’t even know I exist, and this “anniversary” thing was only in my mind. I know I’m not your “Biggest FAN” and I admit it. I don’t know what else to say, but I care for you, for One direction. I’m hoping the best for you and for the band.

That’s all I can say. I lock out of words. I know it’s not that heartwarming letter but it came from my heart <3

I'm IN LOVE with you and all these little things

 *PHOTOS ARE NOT MINE.

all from tumblr/tumblr bloggers :)

This is The new S-W-A-G (When Boredom Strikes)

While we are practicing for our play for our subject which is Social Science (Rizal)

boredom Strikes, and we play with our costumes and put this on, put that on. haha and everything that could be put on. 

sorry for the camera 360 haha.

sooo BADUY but this is a memory haha

cherish every memory

 the tittle!!!!

This is The new S-W-A-G (When Boredome Strikes)

because of ka-BADUYAN haha

it's actually the Opposite of SWAG haha

"we laugh Hard" haha

me and my friend Alvin

normal.

One Direction INFECTION.

(photos are not mine)

Just like those other girls. I've been infected by this VIRUS called

"ONE DIRECTION INFECTION"

I can't really help it.

well we can't deny That they are Good looking talaga but aside from that (their Good Looks.)

they are sweet and very Talented  teenagers- at heart haha Harry Is the only teenager left in the  group and soon to be 20 at February first next year, two days after my birthday, same year haha and that make sense I think that we are soul mates because of our birthday haha (pathetic.ME) haha But the older is only 21 and the others are 20. they are not that old. louis is 21, Zayn , Liam  and Niall is 20. (just saying)

before, i hate boy Bands. for me it was sooo Gay.

and I'm in-to Bands, rock or pop rock bands. (until now padin naman)

but after I saw them It changed. 

I realized that Boy bands are not so gay. 

they are not that typical Boy Band, They have something that everyone (not literally everyone, they also have their haters and it's okay we can't please everyone. whats important is their true supporters, their fans, and the ones that believes in them)They have something that every directioner (rather) loves. they have that CHARM

Now I understand.

And now I am open into different and variety of genre's .

the lesson I learned from past is to

"not judge artists by it's genre" haha ?!?!?!?!

I laugh, sorry. Is just that before I hate this band from my country which they play reggae and every time I hear them playing it keeps on annoying me.'But now I don't hate that band anymore and I am enjoying some reggae songs. 

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here are some of my favorite Photos of 

ONE DIRECTION.

"This Is Us" tour picture

live while were young music Video

 still Live while were young Music Video

Please NO AFFECTION!

And When I realized that no one will... you know..
I wish for No affection.
I just don't want to expect and get hurt.
sometimes I feel like I was being betrayed by my own feelings and emotion.
As I always say "It's so sad to love but not get loved in return". you know that feeling? when you you're hopeless but still hoping? to hope for something but so impossible to achieve .
ugghh. I wish I wasn't that kind of person
I wish I wasn't the person who always gives love.