Double dead Heart

Okay, I'm done! 

100% Done fangirling!

or NAH! just Kidding.

Remember my P.S on "What Hurts the Most"? blog?

This is what I said "P.S Ashton Irwin, please save me! and please don't date someone, Not right now, because it will hurt me so much"

Well I was kinda late. He's seeing/dating someone now.
well, its not really it's not really that surprising, remember when he is rumored dating Kendall Jenner and Gemma Styles (Harry's Styles' sister)? and he had girlfriend back when they are not that famous .

Don't get me wrong, I"M NOT SAYING THAT HE CAN'T DATE SOMEONE. 'CAUSE IM NOT REALLY IN THE POSITION TO SAY THAT AND WHO AM I TO SAY THOSE THINGS TO HIM. I'M REALLY NO ONE!

I admit, I got sad. But I'm not mad or what.

It's just that, Harry and Ashton are my Two major crush right now, and everybody knows how it hurts seeing your crush with someone right? and I just say that "Not right now" because Harry just broke my baby heart. And I can't stand (maybe) if Ash date  a girl now. 

Well, Applause! because I am alive, breathing and still Kicking! hahaha

Credits to the Owners

This pictures are from Instagram. (not mine)

here are some pictures of Ash with a blond girl

This was all just a rumour. No one proves it. 

No one really have to spread things, Until Ashton say it by Himself.

I still Love and respect Harry and Ashton No matter what.

 His smile.., If he's Happy then I'm Happy for him.

This is soooo sweet :)

I just realized that you can't control someone's emotion, even if they had Millions of fans that doesn't approved Some of their decisions,  And If you are truly a fan, you'll going to accept and love your Idol no matter what. 

I'm not really done fangirling because it's me. I'm always the fan girl (Not the girl) haha

But I'm done Obsessing,  you know my obsession thingy. because its not healthy. 

But I will still support them :)

And who Knows, I might be Ashton or Harry's next Girlfriend right?
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Being A fan Girl Is not that easy.

I swear, being a fan Girl is not that easy.

you'll know it when you see their posts on their accounts, the pictures, and when watching their videos from youtube, instagram, keek or in any social network out there, you feel that "Butterflies in your tummy" thingy

even the simplest, dumbest, the super non-sense videos they make, makes you laugh, makes you go gaga, make you "kilig". and most of all makes you LOVE them even more.

I really don't know why I'm being this way. like you know, mentally dating boy band/band members. having a relationship with them, but of course they don't know about it. and they doesn't even know you exist. but it feels great and sad at the same time. being a fangirl is like a grenade, makes you feel like your going to blow up anytime, whenever they post cute, cool pictures and videos, whenever they have announcements or anything, even if you won't be able to participate and come to whatever they've announced you can feel your heart skips a bit and get excited.

And also! you know it when your heart breaks into pieces by hearing some rumors about your favorite band/boyband/singer dating someone, and you wishes it was you. but unfortunately it will NEVER be me.

there are exactly 71 days left before the #OnTheRoadAgainTour (One Direction) in Manila, and they are already preparing for their tours as i saw on Instagram. And Exactly 62 days left before the Ed Sheeran in Manila concert. and right now, I'm kinda depressed knowing that I won't be able to watch their concert. and maybe on March 12,2015 and March 21&22 2015, I'm going to cry the whole day and night and I'm going to lock myself in my room and never ever go out until the show and the boys is out in the Philippines, its really depressing and I really envy those other fan girls who will get the chance to watch their concert. ( I really wish I was a rich kid so that wont have to doubt about spending money)

okay, so I already accept the truth and it really hurts, this is my first depression in 2015 and it sucks!.
to One Direction and Ed Sheeran I Love you even if I wont be seeing you on your tour.

PHOTOS ARE NOT MINE!
I don't know if this is the Original poster but..yeah.

 the boys wearing Philippine Jersey

and of course the bae! mah bae :)
my love.


And also I'm fan Girl-ling Over 5 SOS. And even if they're not having a concert or haven't been planning a concert yet in the Philippines, I just want to share my Love for 5SOS ( 5 Seconds of Summer)
 this are not their Most recent photo I just love Ash's hair like this. (yeah I have a thing with the drummer boy)

punk rock band from Australia

from left: Ahston Irwin (Drummer), Calum Hood ( Bassist and NOT ASIAN), Michael Clifford (on Lead Guitars) and Luke (guitars) they All sing like all of them have great voices and participates in their songs.

yeah perfection in one photo. 1D and 5SOS

a little trivia:
-Louis Tomlinson discover 5SOS and 1D decided to take them on tour.
 -5 SOS (five SAUCE not five ES OH ES)
- they are all teenagers ( Im 6 months older than their oldest member witch is Ash :) )
- they are not boy band.



*photo's are not mine*